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Alhamdulillah I can access my blog again.

My heart felt like it want to pop...because I am so happy.
subhanallah...
Maha Suci Allah...
Syukur alhamdulillah...
Alhamdulillah.. I can access my blog again.
syukur sangat...sob..sob..sob..(happy tears)
I'm very thankful...because lastly I can write something here again. My last entry here was in July 2009.
I forgot my password! can you believe it? I tried so many times. I almost gave up. I felt useless because I can't even remember my own password. But many thanks to Allah s.w.t. because He gave me an idea to access the other source. I entered the other blog that I followed. I found my own email. er actually I forgot my email since I didn't use my real identity so it is a bit difficult to remember it. A bit? hehehe actually so difficult to remember it. I just know my password. I am a very forgetful person. huh but really thanks now I can access my blog.

I just so thankful to Allah s.w.t.
syukran...syukran... ya Allah....
I feel like I want to shout to the world or I want to leap high to the moon or to the star!

The innocent SMU(A) Al-Yunusiah students

New school, new experience. What you expect to see if you go to new school? I thought about the students first. Well, here I am at SMU(A) Al-Yunusiah. A very small school with only 127 students, 10 teachers, 2 clerks and no more. Very poor...

The students came from poor family with many problems. One of them, the sadest one among them I think. well I still new, so I need time to know others. But since I'm here, I talk to her. She like to learn and very fast learner. She is shy, polite, have a very beautiful smile and very slim body or I should say thin. She came from Kemboja, it surprise me because I thought she look like other Kelantanese, with her beautiful face. She also among the cleaverest in the class.

One day, nothing to do when I had gap, so I took this class with me to the library. I asked them to read something in English if they like or maybe Malay. My purpose just to train them to love books like I do. This girl came to me with a thin english book like a year 1 student's book. I asked her to read, she is quite good in reading using Malay pronounciation so I corrected her. She kept reading with better pronounciation, no more mistakes when she said the words I corrected before. After finished one book, I ask her about her UPSR results.

A very surprise story I got! She never went to primary school before and didn't take UPSR. She told me she only had a chance to come to school when she was 13 years old. What a sad story for a bright girl like her. While the story flow from her mouth, I tried my best to hold my tears from falling. She is from Kemboja, her parents came to Malaysia illegally. She loves learning but she can't go to school because she didn't has passport. This year she will have one of important exam for Arabic stream PMRU but I'm not sure if she can take the exam. I think she can because this exam is under Yayasan Kelantan not a government examination. 

My last day at school, she came to me with a sweet smile, thanked me for everything I taught her. What should I say to her? Still holding my tears whenever she came to me to ask or to thank me. I hug her like I hug my other students, tell her to study hard. I wish I can say good luck for your exam like I wish my other students.

Even now, whenever I think about her, my tears will easily spill.

How about other students? Hmm every human have their own story they carry with them behind their back. Maybe a nice story or maybe a suffering sad story. Here they are, in front of me they sat with a laugh and smile. They always happy to be with their friends. Well, a friend plays a very important role to them, support them while they suffer.

They came from a very poor family. I heard one of it my self. When one girl asking to borrow office phone to call her father at home. Tells the father that she doesn't has money to go home.

Teachers sometimes gave them money to buy food. If you want to know, the canteen only prepare 100 kuih everyday because they know the students don't have money to buy or support their short break with nice nasi ayam or a lot of kuih.

Lucky me... thanks to Allah s.w.t

1 oclock in the morning 7th July 2009 Tuesday. It been long ago when I wrote my feeling here. now I'm UPSI student. Glad? Yup bit glad because I got lot this year. Prosperity comes like water flow in the river. Got a lot of offers. Thanks to Allah s.w.t. because Allah s.w.t. gave me everything I wanted. I got job. I got happiness. Glad to be better.

Hmm what I wanna say today? I love my father, he is the best father for me even he is not a good husband to my mother. He pampered me too much. It touch to my very heart. Thanks ayah for everything. I seldom say I love you but really I love you. I always worry about you. I don't want to lose you. I really hope that I can send my father and my mother to Mekkah. I want them to be in heaven later.

Love them while you still have them....

Why I wrote this? Hmm I don't know, but read between the line. I think I have epiphany about people I loved...I love them very much even my heart ached when they did something I don't like, even things I hate, I still love them...

Hug when you still have them…
Peluklah mereka selagi ada peluang…
Because when that’s come the time, you will lose them...
There is no regret when you appreciate what you have before you lose them…
But there is no turning back if you forgot to love them, to tell them how much you care and love them…
Take this time as your opportunity to show your love
So when the time comes
The time that you will losing them…
You will never regret…
For the love you show them…
For the hug and smile you share…
Even you miss them,
You have their smile… in your heart and mind…

King who lose his country....

It has been so long since I published my old post before these two post today. Hmmm I already got new job. Hmm really challenging, need to deal with small kids. Small kids??? Quite big actually. Hmm  the big problem is that I don't really good in my own field??? Can we conquer our own field when we are not the expert??? Bet I will lose it to others good and better person. Er I mean, a suitable and compatible person with my field. A king who cannot control the field will lose to other conquerer or other king. huhuhu, I don't mind if I got another wonderful job. But, since I don't have another job that suitable with me, better I stay here. I got problem with my language, I not the expert with English Language.

forgottttttttttttttttttt

Oh my God!!! I forgot my password for my other blog. If my computer got problem, I will lose my own blog. Hope it will never happened lah. But luckily I remember my password in this blog. I've tried hundred times to enter my gmail account but still can't. What number phone I have used before this??? I just have 2 number phone and 1 for my old home number. I have tried all of these number but still can't. huhuhu, I need to excess to my gmail account to get something. Or I pretend  to get something. What's going on with my mind??? Always forgot about small things errr even biggest and important things.

diet????me???

I need to diet for my good health. My weight now 78 or better I say 80. I worried if I get diabetes or overweight that will contribute to lots of disease. I need to diet to make my weight below 60 or in better health; good weight for me is 51. So I need to keep up my work on exercise and eat only bread and oat. Oh can I live by only eating that food?

 

Why men always like to hurt their women?

Why men always like to hurt their women? Do they think that they are soooooooooo gooooood?? That’s make me hates men. I hate them when they think they are better than women. I think some of them really stupid when they call others stupid.

It’s really hurt my feeling when my father called my mother stupid in front of me. Hey, please don’t call your wife stupid or talk bad things about your wife in front of your children because it will only make your children hate you and think you are realllllllyyyyyyyy stupid because you can’t control your bad side, bad mouth, darkest heart. My father always said that my bad attitude or my brothers bad attitude come from my mother. I really hate my father when he speaks evil about my mother.

Stupidest men are someone who didn’t know how to appreciate their wife, didn’t respect their wife and speaks evil about their wife.

That is why I don’t like them, always pretend they are good, better person while they are really bad, mulut jahat.

They raise their voice when they spoke to women to show their power. That also I call stupid. Stupid, idiot, moron!!!! Do they appreciate their wife??? No, they don’t because they are moron! They think they are strong? They are weak, they talk like bullshit. Always raise their voice when they talk to their wife, call their women stupid, evil, bad heart (busuk hati). Hey, they are your wife!!!!!!!!! You stupid bastard! Why you chose them as your wife if they have bad heart, stupid, evil? Who serves their body to you? The way you talk about your wife and treat them like they are slaves, who deserve bad things from you. I hate you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You treat them like that because they live by your income? So they deserve to be treated like slave? Whom you can call them stupid, idiot, serves their body to you, serves you delicious meal. Those women is neither stupid nor evil but they know their responsibility even they are bit stupid because let all of you stupidest idiot guy to do whatever they don’t deserves.

How can I get married when all of these stupidest guy all around me.

serba salah

I don’t know where I’m standing now. Is this the right place to stand and wait? Everything makes me feel uncomfortable.

I really wish I have my own house that can be call as home. But how to makes the dream comes true? Tension je hidup kalau jadi manusia yang tak berguna ni. Memang sedey la. Do you think that all people need money? I think that is right that all people need money. You can’t live without money nowadays because everything we need have prices. So I do need money too.

I have many things that I like to keep with me but when the home that used to be my real and the place that i grow up, can’t be called my real home anymore, it is really hurt. They need their space now. So I better move out. I love my old stuff. I wish to keep them with me. Huhuhu.

I can’t get along with my own parents. Hidup serba salah je gan diorang  nih. So better I stay out of them. But not always la, sometimes I still need to come home but not as often. Maybe once in a month or two month like I did when I studied at university. When I was studied, I used to come home, twice in one semester; one when it is mid semester and another one is when semester break. That’s what I did before.

Rules:
1. The rules of the game get posted at the beginning
2. Each player answers the questions about themselves
3. At the end of the post the player then tags 5 people and posts their names, then goes to their blogs and leaves a comment, letting them know they got tagged and to ask them to play and read your blog.

Starting time: 12.30a.m
Name : Alia
Sisters : 0
Brothers : 3
Shoe size : 8,9
Height : 162

Where do you live : taman koperasi polis
Have you ever been on a plane : yes masa blk kampung
Swam in the ocean : pernah la gak even tengelam kepala, tapi bukan kat laut kat pantai je.
Fallen asleep at school : never
Broken someone’s heart : rasanya memang banyak dah
Fell off your chair : penah jatuh kat bilik sdiri

Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call : tak penah
Saved e-mails : mesti la, byk yang penting
What is your room like : cm stor cz barang byk sgt kekadang terpikir mati terhempap segala barang tu.
What’s right beside you: laptop,buku
What is the last thing you ate : roti yg disapu gan jem sos cili

Ever had... chicken pox : penah penah
Sore throat : penah tp dah lupa bila
Stitches : yg ni mtk jauh
Broken nose : sama la mtk jauh la
Do you believe in love at first sight : percaya percaya
Like picnics : paling suka kat tmpt yang ada air cm pantai, air terjun, asal sunyi n tenangkan jiwa

Who was/were... The last person you danced with: diri sdiri je
Last made you smile: bebrp jam lepas lps baca novel nurul aini SMT Mahkota
You last yelled at: sejam lepas kot kat kawan aku kot. huhuhu
Today did you... Talk to someone you like: hmm tak lagi, lagi pun aku tak tau sapa yg aku suka
Kissed anyone: pernah la tp yg dhalalkan tuk aku la kat pipi dah la, lebih2 p blah la
Get sick : sapa tak pernah sakit mmg bkn manusia la

Talk to an ex : aku lom penah bercinta la
Miss someone : hmm aku pun tak tau sapa yg aku rindu,klo dibygkan cm byk je manusia yg aku rindu.
Who do you really hate: someone yg blh wat aku rasa bengang
Do you like your hand-writing : hmm kekadang klo time dia cantik
Are your toe nails painted : tak pernah dan tak akan la
Whose bed other than yours would you rather sleep in : mana2 yg bagi aku keselesaan, klo katil kat hotel yg room paling mahal lagi best, empuk giler
What color shirt are you wearing now : t shirt putih

Are you a friendly person : boleh la
Do you have any pets : tak dak hope dpt burung kakak tua putih n cola bear putih n kuda putih org pgl unicorn, arnab putih
Do you sleep with the TV on : klo aku tak buat la,klo org len on time aku tdo aku biaq je la
What are you doing right now : menaip kat laptop nih la specifically jawab soklan ni la smbil dgr lagu fav aku
Can you handle the truth : hmm depend gak la cz klo dah teruk kena kritik aku rasa boleh nangis gak aku tapi aku akan try adjust
Are you closer to your mother or father : hmm sbnrnya xrapat gan dua-dua pun. Aku tak tau gan sapa aku rapat selain diri sendiri
Do you eat healthy : makanan aku banyak yang coklat kalo tanya favorite aku, ari nih dah bantai kek coklat, aiskrim coklat, coffee, roti, cookies raya punya
Do you still have pictures of you & your ex : la kan aku dah cakap aku tak penah bercinta lagi
If you’re having a bad day, who are you most likely to go to : sesorang lagi baik, kang ada yang kena marah gan aku kalo kaco aku kang. Tapi kalo sherry boleh gak, just jadi teman je la,tak bising-bising
Are you loud or quiet most of the time : most time memang diam nak mampus la
Are you confident : dulu confident je now dah tak

5 things I was doing 10 years ago
1) amik SPM
2) amik PMR
3) amik STPM
4) mengadap novel
5) makan. Kalo tanya lagi aku jawab la rutin harian aku

5 things I would do if I were a billionaire
1) nak hantar mak n ayah pegi haji n umrah, bawak sekali suma satu family
2) bagi duit tetiap bulan tuk mak n ayah aku
3) beli rumah, keta, tanah, furniture, novel. Pendek kata segala yang aku suka la
4) nak wat library peribadi yang penuh buku, nak wat bilik ibadah serba putih, nak beli CD bebanyak
5) nak joli sambil derma kat umah org susah termasuk la rumah anak yatim

5 of my bad habits
1) pemarah
2) merajuk
3) tinggi suara
4) terasa hati
5) masam

5 places I've lived/living
1) taman melati, gombak
2) pasir mas
3) pasir tumbuh
4) keris mas ukm bangi
5) taman koperasi polis

5 people I tag
tagged aku ramai je member, yg btl2 tagged in my heart memang best friends aku je la, family aku, yang aku suka je. takleh nak dulukan mana dulu cz family aku blh la aku tagged suma cz 5org je. Kwn baik aku lak rmi so aku tak tau nak dulukan sapa. Blog kna tagged gan aku nurul aini, miza, dr m, lagu top masa kini, tah aku lupa dah

12.48.am

Do I need to apologize???

sesi meluahkan perasaan:

Do I need to apologize when i do nothing wrong??

I have problem with my housemate. Lot of headache. I don't know how to prevent this from happened again. 

I need to find a new house I think. Or do I need to? hmm don't worry, I just need to wait only for another 1 week then I be gone. But, sadly that not for good. Why do I need to stay here again after this? I don't know. Maybe the house is cheap. But, my other friend at work say that her house is cheaper than mine.

Well I'm a quiet person. That's mine or my title is nothing better than lone ranger. So what's up with that? As long as I don't disturb others. Better I be a quiet person than make a fuss that will cause havoc right? I hate gossiping because that will cause a lot of trouble. I always avoid from making a gossip about other. Why? It is up to them to gossip about me or to speak ill about me, but not me, I don't like to speak ill about other people. It is better I be a quiet person right. Sometimes of course my mouth sighs about other people. But, that's life. You lives with other people that have lots of attitude. So as a human being I need to adapt with this situation. You can't live alone in this world. But, I always try not to depend on them.